❤Thursday, November 30, 2006 ❤
wooosh...today gan busy....now blogging at ting hse...okie...lets start..
last night talk with ting on the phone till morning five like dat...whoa...know so much bout her le...girl u make me heart sour oso wor...we crazy de...laughed crazily on the phone..next moment both crying...the laugh...whoa....siao de lor...i long long never really like dat tok liao...very glad she told me stuffs...hope u will feel better in time to come...hm...the advices u gave me i got reflect de...heex..i am trying...
haix...pek cek..early morning tio gan from mother...so fed up...she angry with my sis..yet i got implicated...why must u curse me mummy...sian la...wat retribution...i never do anything wronmg can....pls reflect mummy....the pain and trauma and forbia u input into me is enough k....i also got my limits de...i dun want to be rude to you...but u will never realised how much u hurt me....since young i let u throw temper on me...zhen zhen [younger sis]...i also let her bullyle...not enough ma???i step back liao...this is wat i deserve ma?believe me la...if i dun lurve u and mei i would have gone bad long ago and never repent lor....tired le...sick of these...need peace...
today 12 plus like dat bring ger here to ting hse...she help me look after ger while i go for muh interview...soooooooooOOOOO sweet of her...she put up with ger nonsense for abt five hours...haix...sorry girl for troubling you....
okie...then i went down...but...the fucker tell me must postpone to 4p.m..by right is 1.15pm...k...so i go town meet my sis for lunch...walk around cine...wantd to get something for ting...but i really dunno wat to get...tooo ex i cannot afford...too cheap not suit her...hm...then headed down to united square....far lor...but bo bian...need job....need money....haix...after interview went straight to ting hse pick girl...wha...the way ger lie on ting so cute...i thank u a million girl for ur help...no words gonna describe my grattitude....
i love you girl...
candy-val
5:38 PM
5:38 PM
❤Wednesday, November 29, 2006 ❤
weee~~!today ish another day for me as a mummy....seeing girl grow from thin to fat to thin really is something memorable...i told muhself if now dun treasure such moments...in a blink of eye girl will be big liao...so hard...gotta be strong val!!!!wahahha...ooooh....today is muh baby sister zhenzhen 17th birthday....jie wishes you sexy seventeen ya???may u grow sexier...pretier...richer...but dun forget ur jie here who dotes you the most....hugs big big wor....wanted to bring her go clubbing but now got ger ger so very inconvenient...lols...i wonder if muh boy is missing me cuz i am missing him to bits....hm...ting gonna ask me to wake up liao!!!!yes girl...i know i still clinging onto muh stupid thinking...hm...aniwaez....ting...!!!!u are scariing me....u sure u ok...i gt problem i gt u...u gt problem....remember u gt me and ariel wor....heex....yesterday yingiie msn me say quickly call u..i thot wat happen norhx...haix....i very worried....hm....wooOOOOOried!
candy-val
8:30 AM
8:30 AM
❤Tuesday, November 28, 2006 ❤
whoa...again few days then blog....no com wor...hm...things okie norh....just that that day i almost ki siao again....ger kept crying at night....dunno wat she want.....i pek cek then on the tap at the sink and wet her head.....think i scare her....then only she slept....but muh heart damn pain...haix.....dunno wat i doing nahx....i really scared one day i will kill muh precious....haix....this christmas dunno how lei....cnnot go out....got ger ger now....hm...spend quality time with her ba....i pray with muh whole soul that muh christmas dream and wish of girl growing healthy will come true....
ting er i miss u...miss ur laughter...u r my morl support....thank u for putting up with muh nonsense...i saw ur tag.....so touched...sorry...and i lurve u girl....meet me soon...i wanna be bullied by u again...lol...lame shit...hugs hugs
candy-val
9:41 AM
9:41 AM
❤Friday, November 24, 2006 ❤
hm...just this morning received message from ting bout rong....haix...i read le i cry...girl...erms...bout that wrong message...yes it was to him but u mistaken...i did tell him i at jurong east...but not the room number wor....aaniwaez...i know many of muh frends including u cares for me...i am apprecitive of tht....i tried letting go...but very hard...i know i gonna end up more hurt this way....but wat to do....i know i am lying to muhself all this while...i know de girl....just tht i really dun wish to wke up to reality so soon...girl i very scared.....
very scared i will breakdown....
glad to have u by muh side...
sorry girl for making u worry....
i also very dissappointed in muhself why i cannot let go...
haix...
candy-val
9:55 AM
9:55 AM
❤Thursday, November 23, 2006 ❤
kk..yesterday went to k-box with ting...wanted to go pub de...but very troublesome....hm.....we drank...not much lor...but got goggy le...like they say la::::when one dun wanna get drunk u normally gets drunk the esiest...lol...fine!!!GOT SCOLDING!cuz nt suppose to drink...but u guys won't know how stress we were....oh....learned from ting...next time wann drink must use straw....kick comes damn fast...lol...hm...today neh...very normal...went to airport fetch muh step-mummy....then celebrate my parents anniversary...at airport...nice food.... heex...boring lei...sianx
candy-val
11:43 PM
11:43 PM
❤Wednesday, November 22, 2006 ❤
hm..me now at ting house again wor....lolx...wanted to ask her help me look after girl for few hours then i go get things...but dunno lei..so sian...hm...things have been fine for me...baby too....
if i really am still in ur heart....hold on to me pls...
baby girl is growing up well...but she is still shoooo notti at night...haix...wish she grows well...and mummy never meant to hurt u in aniway...believe me
candy-val
7:16 PM
7:16 PM
❤Saturday, November 18, 2006 ❤
me now at esther place....boring...cuz went to town find my baby sister...she working so gotta wait till she finish work....so come here slack norhx...hmmmm....i am not alone frends...cuz in my heart...got my girl...my soul nehx...got my sisters....[estherr...rain...yingsie...geegee...dino...huiyi...] and brothers...wahahaha.....i now thinking wanna go clubbing with muh sisters not...though i got bby le but still must have time for muhself ma...miss those days wor....but dunno who look after ger lei...sian...eeeeks....god give me some help out ya??
candy-val
8:31 PM
8:31 PM
❤Friday, November 17, 2006 ❤
fucking tired....last night girl cried incessantly again...
hope muh dreams come true this christmas...
my girl to grow healthilycan buy new clothesgot a good pay jobget a new bag...shoes....dye my hair...have nice hairslim downMOST IMPORTANTLY....HAVE A HAPPY FAMILY WITH ME...MY BOY AND BABY ARIEL
candy-val
11:11 PM
11:11 PM
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it has been long since i updated....no com ma....heex
+k...i miss my sexy...ting
+her nonsense.....her luffs...her nags...her FOOD!!!!
+i did not mention yaa???she is great at cooking....
+ooh...though her tempura dun look like...but taste great....hur hur
oh...that day went vivo with ting and jaqueline....nice outing....ate swensens....nice...the bake rice ok nia la....ting u cooking right???owe me one...but when going hm...the taxi queue dmn long....cuz..all book cab...so the queue short but no cab available
candy-val
1:05 PM
1:05 PM
❤Friday, November 10, 2006 ❤
hm....me now at ting hse...just finish sgh checkup....lol...
my girl is 5 kg liao....heavy wor....
head circumference ish 36cm...
but she ish tall...heng ar....
now ting cooking...ha...damn hungry...
met esther the other day.....she so cute...
ger u fail la....carry ariel awhile then she cry le....lol
oh ya...ur billiard still cannot make it sia.....haha...
though i lost touch le..nt as good le...but at least still gt standard norh..
[hao lian]
oh ya... curled muh hair...i now so mature... lol...gd la...like dat no need to entertain guys le...heex...
will update soon ya????
candy-val
1:32 PM
1:32 PM
❤Wednesday, November 08, 2006 ❤
kkk...no time to make nice nice muh blog cuz i am rushing...now at tampines...kan sian....cannot go out and all...lat muh mummy nag till i siao le....hm...muh girl tummy still not very good i think cuz she is still notti want me bao bao then will sleep...wha..jia lat sia.... anyway...will nt be updating so frequently cuz i no com..damn com ish down...but i still miss all muh friends...whether new or old....still muh frends i cherish...hugs to all...muackx...
candy-val
9:43 AM
9:43 AM
❤Monday, November 06, 2006 ❤
my heart hurts so much when i see my girl screamed till like that....i dunno wat to do to help...mummy is so worried gurl...even if i have to carry u thru the night so that u can sleep peacefully...mummy willing to...u are all that i have....
boy...i know u dun always show ur concerns for me and girl just like that... but i hope we are in ur heart all the time... saw jacqueline's hubby sam...the way he wanted to fix baby jovan's playpen...haix..if only i have a husband to help me out...to care...to lurve me...to wipe my ters when i breakdown...it hurts..i lurve u alot though u do things that make me sad...and that lurve will never be lesser...
candy-val
2:07 AM
2:07 AM