❤Tuesday, February 27, 2007 ❤
too much has happened lately....like she said...no longer the valerie lio....i lost everything just at one go...muh sexy...my sister...my mr.mark....maybe this is wat i call deserves ba....all i knew was i just did not awake though several attempts by people around me....till they gave up....i am lost...hurt....
to my lil sister...jie knows wat i did disappointed u lots...but i was not strong enough....sorry....
to my sexy....i never took u for granted...the rantings u made to me that day...the screams u blewed into muh head...the words thta pierced into my heart....will never be forgotten....wat u said were never wrong....i dunno wat to say...but when u told me u not coming for muh bday...i am lost...very lost..i know i made another mistake....and this time it is grave....but i really cannot keep it...this thursday is the day i have to get rid of it....i very scared after that u really won't bother le...but i got no other choice....i got no ability...i may sound irresponsible....but mark was saying...he can accept me and girl...but not another of my mistakes.....sorry my dear...sorry is all i can say....hope to see u this friday....after my abortion on thursday i will tell u where...friday pls come...without u there is no birthday for me....i not calling others le....
to mark....sweetie....thanks for all these years of waiting...thaanks for never giving up on me....th night u knew i was preg again with his....u cried out ur heart.....it hurts me to see u pain this way...the lurve u showed me....made me believe that this world still got lurve...time after time i hurt u yet u still want me...i dunno wor.......guess i made up muh mind....i will be urs...i Am willing to get married to you...give me time....2 years....and i will prove it all.....lurves
to leon....thanx for leaving behind sweet memories....thnx for giving me baby girl....but becuz of u i was condemned....i lost everybody....yet i still never have ur heart....go find ur hppiness...cuz i think i found mine le....i will never hate u for the things u do...the things u said....dun worry bout me and girl....we are happy...i will be....friends we'll stll be...mybe this way everything will be better....i felt so silly holding on to u when u never cared...yes u may say u want us ....next month???but sorry my dear...its too late le....neither will i let u use this to taake girl way..i won't let such chance slip by de....take care
sorry for all the hurt....by the way baby ariel is growing well...now she see's mummy cry she will touch my fce....she see me eat she will make noise...she wil peep to see whether i am angry not then continue crying...lols....my princess
candy-val
1:22 PM
1:22 PM
❤Sunday, February 18, 2007 ❤
first of all...happy new year to you...[indicating whoever viewing muh blog right now*]...went visiting the whole day freaking tired....cuz this morning 5 plus then reach home...yesterday play mahjong overnight at ah yi there...woosh...11 plus was out visiting...sad to say this year i never eat reunion dinner with muh dad...nor muh grandparents...cuz nobody accepts princess there...never mind....mummy will not throw u alone de...dun go dun go lorx....bor kiam min...lurves ariel**
hmmm...went over to muh mummy's place...met up muh lil sis...then headed to grandmother place at queensway....sat and nua awhile then sua to hougang....da yi place...this year very quiet nehx....never see all muh relatives...cuz muh cousin ish down with chicken pox...so the "gambling den" ish close...lols...no lar..i mean the place our usual gathering de is not available...so all nowhere to go....in the end stay hougang till 8 plus then go home le....tired...sleep..rests...for tomorrow we shall visit...heehee...
girl today ar...play and play...going ki siao ler...non-stop...laughters she filled the entire family....but when they start to question me bout her daddy...i emo again...sian lar...just let me forget him...its painful....
when i asked him theat day why he bought so many stuffs for her and that i gave muh piece of mind and told him wat i felt...how angry i was....yet i feel good....maybe when he say me...that i did something wrong outside...i guess i gave up...cuz he finally showed how irresponsible he was...he rather buy gifts for her than bring ger go *** hell lar....give up....i curse...i cursing..i cursed
ting wait for me...i am coming very soon...with lil princess....lurvess...lol
hmmm...went over to muh mummy's place...met up muh lil sis...then headed to grandmother place at queensway....sat and nua awhile then sua to hougang....da yi place...this year very quiet nehx....never see all muh relatives...cuz muh cousin ish down with chicken pox...so the "gambling den" ish close...lols...no lar..i mean the place our usual gathering de is not available...so all nowhere to go....in the end stay hougang till 8 plus then go home le....tired...sleep..rests...for tomorrow we shall visit...heehee...
girl today ar...play and play...going ki siao ler...non-stop...laughters she filled the entire family....but when they start to question me bout her daddy...i emo again...sian lar...just let me forget him...its painful....
when i asked him theat day why he bought so many stuffs for her and that i gave muh piece of mind and told him wat i felt...how angry i was....yet i feel good....maybe when he say me...that i did something wrong outside...i guess i gave up...cuz he finally showed how irresponsible he was...he rather buy gifts for her than bring ger go *** hell lar....give up....i curse...i cursing..i cursed
ting wait for me...i am coming very soon...with lil princess....lurvess...lol
candy-val
9:37 PM
9:37 PM
❤Monday, February 12, 2007 ❤
to the guys who showered me with care and concerns::::::::
- sorry..its all i can say
- i know u guys have showered me with lots of lurve and care....
- its not that i dun appreciate...
- but u guys gotta know that i ain't longer that VALERIE...nor CANDY...
- i have a lil girl now....
- i no longer believe in fairytales...
- its not i dun want to show any interests back but its becuz i haave changed
- i can no longer fling around or just like anyone i see....
- maybe after i have given birth my mentality changed.....
- nothing is more important than earning money for my il girl
- never ask me to forget my guy...
- though he has done me wrong...
- though he hurt me tons...
- but he is the guy i reallly cannot forget....
- my lil girl has his blood... seeing my girl reminds me of him...
- sick and tired of guys...
- i ain't playing anyone out...
- not trying to hurt anyone...
- but please...all of us has grown up...
- learn to grow mature...
- kisses and hugs to all the guys who showered lurve upon me...
- but simply hugs and kisses and nothing else...
LEON HENG HWA YONG
- you lurved me and brought me high...
- yet u threw me high from above
- i fell badly...
- i can never stand tall being who i am...
- i wanna forget all these memories of mine...
- i wanna tell myself how silly i have been...
- i wanna ask god to erase all my memories....
- please stop torturing me....
- valentines coming...
- another year without my guy....
- its meaningless.....
- i wish u could just live happily with the girl u lurve...
- but u cheated...
- why so fast from cindy to another ger...
- wats all these....
- i really dun wish to sy these...
- but u played enough le ba....
- u hurt many of ur exs lerr....
- dun hurt another...
- no one approves with my feelings for you..
- but it was fate that brought the two of us together....
- i dunno wat to do any more
- my birthday is muh dead line...
- its drawing near...
- i am scared....
- shattered....
- gone...
candy-val
1:31 AM
1:31 AM
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have been working till late these few days...com was down so could not update...tired...every day work till 12 midnight then can reach home..i miss my lil princess... sad that she slim down lerrrr....no more that chubby cheeks of hers...maybe cuz she has been rejecting milk...wanna start solids ler..i never give her when she four months cuz i did not wanna rush in to it....
just came home from bugis...after work went to opp to eat steamboat with ting...yummy...ting so sweet de...peel prawns...lols...sweet girl...lols...lols..lols... tlk cock and sng song...hmm...gotta plan when to go over her place...hmmm....mon???tues???wed???thurs???fri???hee..i dunno lehx....
just came home from bugis...after work went to opp to eat steamboat with ting...yummy...ting so sweet de...peel prawns...lols...sweet girl...lols...lols..lols... tlk cock and sng song...hmm...gotta plan when to go over her place...hmmm....mon???tues???wed???thurs???fri???hee..i dunno lehx....
candy-val
1:25 AM
1:25 AM
❤Thursday, February 08, 2007 ❤
yesterday wanted to go clubbing with jieying and ting they all de...last min crop up so sua places...jie ying go her friend's penthouse....while ting and company met up at bukit merah central...cuz my lil sis make hair there....after work went down find them... immedately went to ting there to change cuz my sexy wanted to look more sexy....hee*... no la...then we headed to 0z pub at outram...tracy working there.... got free chivas from tracy customer...we slacked....drank beer [cuz muh sexy not in the health]... the whole jug of chivas like only i drink lor....kevin drank one cup though....boring without muh sexy...just felt like drinking...dunno why...emo bah...lols.... oooh...then tracy kept niam say go where go where...ting got frustrated....can see de la...the worst ws tracy asked to pang seh morgn...whoa...pls leh...wanna pang seh oso ish her first in our mind de ma....hahahh.... then we slack at the prata shop nearby...thinking where to sua....in the end we go to THE ONE at cine there norhx....haix...ting start to attitude le.... cuz really bo hua nahx...oops...think i said wrong things again...haix...dunno why owaes irritate sexy...paiseh nehx.... soon nort long trcy left...lols..all got form le lor...ll can be ownself...but she damn guai lan la....never pay and ish she jio us go there then she just left like that...pathetic... enjoyed muhself....thanx sexy....lurves.... rushed back at 6 plus to see ger....weee...lucky she just wke up norhx...hee....feed her then go sleep le...wahahha
candy-val
1:53 PM
1:53 PM
❤Tuesday, February 06, 2007 ❤
have not been blogging for three days....lazy.. work liao go home sleep le...no time....no energy....ha...working at bugis...for the time being...everyday to pass our time my colleague and i will tok cock....then smoke norhx...found muh long lost khaki...jie ying...lols...she oso work bugis ma...then we go for smoke lorx....lols...sian sian....my lil girl ish just so cute...lurve her to bits...saw so many cute things in bugis for her....but never buy leh...maybe thursday then buy....hee...muacks darling girl...
hmm...tml muh sis going to make her hair...oops...paiseh ar ting...muh sis ish kinda cannot fix her mind up doing her hair...lols...paiseh nehx...go sleep le...tml wake up 7 again...omg....ki siao liao.
candy-val
11:27 PM
11:27 PM
❤Saturday, February 03, 2007 ❤
woosh....very de tired today....feet hurting man....haix...gotta strive for the sake of muh princess....lols...whoa...darling girl ar...u better appreciate wat mummy has done for you worx...mummy lurves u to bits.... when u grow up hope u will lurve mummy that much tooooooo....muackx...
wee...my sisters all one by one getting married...today recieved a call from geegee...she getting married 4 days after muh bday...wish her best of luck....hee hee...gonna be one of her "jie meis"...so excited....happy for her...hope she found her happiness...wonder when its muh turn....dorts....
tierd...me now go kiss gitl gitl le....eat then go sleep liao...tml gotta wake up early work again...soanz sia....jia you wor val...lols..
candy-val
11:44 PM
11:44 PM
❤Friday, February 02, 2007 ❤
paiseh for the zi lian attitude...but it was while waiting for muh sexy to complete her hair then i take de....lols...
candy-val
9:20 PM
9:20 PM
❤Thursday, February 01, 2007 ❤
wooosh...just finish make muh hair with ting...now at ting place....colured brown base with red-purple highlights..and a special tiger stripe...hee hee....at least my motive ish achieved...got red hair for new year....yet ish not lian-lian look....yeps...kept muh curls cuz they are sexy!!!!lols
miss my baby girl...going to find her soon...wait for surcharge over first...lols...later when reach home will update muh photos with muh new hair colours....lols....will be back
candy-val
7:25 PM
7:25 PM
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worked full-shift today again,...ting and tracy came down to look for me....SURPRISED!!!slacked..talked..laughed...hurhur...ended work at nine thirty....decided to go back to jurong with ting...cuz tomorrow i am going to make muh hair with her....weeee~excited!!!then think of the hussle and trip and transport fees...so i concluded to stay over her place...we had dinner at hawker the go over...nice nice norh the fishball noodle...*licks
talking bout muh hair...up till now...for so many months cannot decide wat to do...just had my curls for like 4 mths plus...then now thot of rebonding...cuz rebonding look younger...i dun wanna look [auntie]lols...but for the past few days muh collegues and customers commented that i look sexy with curls...lols...hmmm...how nehx????lady or young???next option if i not rebonding would be to die muh hair...i dunno lei...i just want to look sexy and hot mummy to my baby girl....hurrhur...how how how nahx.....
i miss my boy...my lil girl and muh friends....yeelin getting married...so lucky of her...envy again....she look so sweet in her photos...."xiao zi de"....jia you!!!!pray u get happy marriage and cute baby boy....lurves and cares...
baby girl ....mummy ish working hard for u...guai guai grow up k???my lil princess...
candy-val
1:32 AM
1:32 AM