❤Thursday, October 25, 2007 ❤
sometimes i wonder....what i want exactly in life....i am a girl who loves money....to be like my younger sis to have my own clothes and bags...cosmetics and boyfriend....but i realised nothing i have belongs really to me....only my princess ariel....my flesh my blood...
i have not move on...i miss the old days when i am with u boy...u gave me ur ultimate attention...u bring me out to get the things i want....u pamper me like nobody business...u surprise me almost every occasions....but i never treasured.....maybe god is playing a fool with me...or shld i say he is teaching me a real hard lesson...
very difficult meh???all i asked is to have a good job with reasonable pay...someone being able to look after princess when i am working....able to have a boy who comes home and give me his attention and love....why is it i want to torture myself....just hope things will be fine.....will u still want me back???will u ever love me again???i miss u....i really do....yet u are ignoring me....
i will walk out of this mess....i have wasted my life for a year.....ting...wait for me...believe in me...i will be able to tell u :::""girl....i am ok""
candy-val
12:34 AM
❤Monday, October 08, 2007 ❤
- lil princess to be smart and healthy
- i go back working in my cosmetic line.....
- save up
- get my driving licence...hm....guess not so soon$$$$
- buy lil princess a series of storybooks....
- get myself new clothes...its been a year since i bought one piece myself[exclude from my sexeh]
- get myself new slippers and heel....[breaking ]
- get lots of fake lashes
- change my hair colour..
- get my piercings
- tattoo my eyebrows...
- get myself new guess wallet and handbag
- sign up new hp line....
- get married!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- not get pregnant so soon!!!!!!!!!!!!pls god...not now
candy-val
10:08 PM
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wtf happened to my tagboard leh.....flooded with nasty sarcasms and critisisms...hahahha....yar...thats the reason why i removerd it....so that people who are boring will not just find my blog to bark around....and yes...thats YOU....lamer...!!!!!u can jolly well insult me...but not my lil girl or my baby sister.....i swear you will get hell from me if i know who u are.....oh...no....isn't it a pity...somebody cannot scream or bark around anymore.....tsk tsk tsk......*shakes head
god gave me the gift that guys are falling for me...but like my sexeh says...is that really wat i want???definitely not....i wanna be independant...strong-willed....earn my living....keep up my savings....get married to someone who proves that he is my everything in the world....aparts from my princess........................................................................thanks for all ur concerns guys.....
candy-val
10:02 PM
❤Tuesday, October 02, 2007 ❤
sometimes god knows u are down with some setbacks...and he would willingly send u gifts to show that he still cares.....he did it to me.....sending two "angels"from above....however...tis does not mean i have to accept anyone being nice and sweet to me.....though the old val would...i can fall for a guy easily...thats my weak point...but to be with that somebody...it takes his effort and sincerity too...
i never liked anyone to control the way i live my life..it may not be the fullest...i may be harming my life....but it's definitely my choice....i may know u are hundred and one mr.nice guy.but i will not go with u...rather when i know a guy that is condemned...i may stilll choose to follow him....
to leon.....u made me thought that i was ur life..ur soul...ur girl...and it turned out that u dun have any feelings for me in the first place....how silly of me to take notice of it only now....becuz i loved u too much...i gave up everything....now the same thing...becuz i love u too much....i willing to give u up...so that u can find ur happiness...just please stop doubting ur lil girl..she is fcuking innocent!!!!haiz...
this is to ****d i know u are being nice to me...i know u care...i know u want me to be ur girl...but there are times when i get to choose...there are times when some things just does not go ur way...there is such thing called a crush...an infatuation....like and love.....maybe u just dunno where u stand.....time can tell it all...its had for me to turn u down straight...but there are reasons behind everything...yes i am happy to have ur company....but i just hope to get away my own problems....u can be really sweet to a girl....try to learn how to behave...let things take its course ya????let time decides.....
this is to ****n...u are a sweet guy...u really nice to people around u....however u seems to be hiding lots of stuff...u told me so what if i know bout ur things.....actually i just wanted to know...actually i dun really care if u are a good or bad guy...cuz it is now de you that i know..its who i see now....sometimes u gotta be selfish.....when i cried that day....its cuz of what u said...maybe its ur sweet talking skills...haha....what u say is right...no matter what decision i make...i should be happy....thanks for teaching me so much...maybe u dun realised....take things slow....liked u said.....
i just want my lil princess and me to happy
candy-val
3:08 AM
