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❤Tuesday, November 24, 2009 ❤

i never said tht u were out to harm e or anything...i know u mean well...but is there anything wrong if i really wanna stick on with the kids...so difficult then i persuade dear...why must i give them up....i know i not perfect mother...i know i no abilitites....but i learning...i trying.....i will get pissed off that day is i not enough sleep...who is the one to see the girl ...is me...i am tired...but did i tell any of u all not.....i was so panicked and nt venting muh anger on her....i just did nt want her to vomit more on the pram.....is there anything wrong...i just gotta act fast....maybe u thot i was venting her...but believe me i was not.....

i am useless in everyway...as compared to u....but i will not give them up....i know wat u wanna say...but know wat i trying to say.....i did nt put anythig in grudge or in muh heart....i can forget things easily..including who i am....i love u sis


candy-val
11:20 PM

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yesterday was a very nasty day for me.....ever since i stepped into redhilll everyhing was wrong....i got said by so many people for i dunno why.....summarized...i got into a fight with zhenzhen....my heart hurts.....all of us is just showing concern to ariel...i will not harm my own girl.....i may seems pek cek...but is really very hard to tolerate...things u said weren't nice either....all these while i loved u not enough....i spend not enough time with u...i dote u not eough so u have to say such ugly words to me....*clap hands*....tired....tired of all these.....maybe u mean wat u say....maybe u wanted to tell me this long time ago....no worries baby sis...i will not disturb u further.....i am just alone once more.....ur love to ariel i appreciate...but u said wrong things at wrong time....i was out of muh mind too...but....it's all ended.....20 years of sistership....in a second it was all destroyed.....i love u....come back when u still want me....

thank god that ariel's fever has subsided...no more fever...just the silly tummy ache thingy that keeps irritating her.....let her have the appetite to eat pls.....take the viruses away oh lord....thank u again

the devil took over me once more......brought belle to the carpark staircase....i bite muhself till numb....i burnt muhself with the cigg*fav*....i banged muh head against the brick wall..i slapped muhself umpteen times to wake me up....this pain i inflict on muhself is soo no fun....is so no pain...it cannot cover the pain i have in my heart...dun like to be said in public....want *face..hate myself...i hate myself for loving u

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candy-val
5:11 PM

❤Monday, November 23, 2009 ❤

ariel darling caught a fever and diarrhea(dunno how to spell)...hope she gets well soon....yesterday her fever went up to 39.9 degrees.....panicked...went to sgh staight....dear and belle had to wait outside cuz too many patients sick there....waited for almost an hour before get to see the doctor...and fcuking hell the doctor tell me they cannot do anything cuz no children doctor...huh????i forced them and made a fuss to waive off my $90 fees......did nth still tell me sit their ambulance go kk hospital...i nt so stupid larrx.....then i brought ariel straight home.....while waiting for us...dear hoax belle to sleep...damn sweet lar...must see the scenerio....a big man like dear who used his gentle hands on her.....i just felt so lucky to have him at that very moment.....
then we headed home....at night i spend the whole night monitoring and sponging my girl....tired...sleepy....at 5 am k.o.......i concussed....cannot take it le.....*oops*......changed so many times of her pampers cuz passed motion.....lucky princess was very cooperative with the medicine feeds......*hengz*....the only thing is that she dun eat and gets very cranky.......

god take away her sickness...heal her pain.....i wanna see the bubbly ariel who keeps jumping around again....god i pray...i call for ur name...i seek ur help......in the name of the lord....heal her....thank u......

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candy-val
6:02 PM

❤Friday, November 20, 2009 ❤

happy happy birthday vicky....lots of
wishes come true.... may u stay as sweet as ever.....but big girl lerrs....dun
do wrong thingy yars...hugs hugs....

i am like oh-so-bored rite noww....preparing to go town meet muh baby sis(zhenzhen)...tgt with my two princesses..but the weather is like so-damn irritating...its pouring again.....thinking of the wet ground....and that my kids cannot any-oh-how run i am like so sianx...thinking of the journey there and back make me simply think like er.....val...u gt nothing better to do than to tire urself huh...go sleep larx...*shake heads....i am getting more and more lazy each day......arrrrrgh

sorry i am just suddenly wanna scold muhself.......so peeps....sorry bout this nonsense.......sometimes i just sit back and think wat the hell i want....wat the hell i am doing or thinking.....wat more can a girl ask for having her baby sis with her all the time...having her two princesses by her side......having her darling boyfriend with her all the time....talking bout my dear....
  • who never left her in a lurch....
  • who buys her things she wishes for....
  • who buys her lunch even when he is broke.....
  • who tolerates her nonsense when he has a nasty temper himself....
  • who blocks her from chairs and harm when in a fight...
  • who loves her two princesses like nobody would
  • who so wanna change and get me out of my sickness...

thats my boyfriend....BRYAN TAN.....<3

i dunno wat more i could ever ask for......why is it that i just cannot let
go a lil bit more sometimes.....*shrugs*..yesterday me and dear was talking
about my problem....he asked me to fight the devil.....i dun wanna
disappoint u...cuz i know i have been a nuisance....*smacks*...i have nt
been able to control muhself....but i just wanna do things so that we will
lead a better life in future....and things
will be going right.....



candy-val
1:24 PM

❤Thursday, November 19, 2009 ❤

rain rain go away....come again another day....

ariel n belle belle wanna play.....rain rain go away

it's like raining so heavily....the kids wnted to go down cycle de...haix...spoil our plans.....arrrrgh........dearie is still working......waiting for him to bring us go red hill eat dinner.....hungry lehs......just now did cooking with the kids......taught ariel how to make pancakes...and she did a great job stirring and mixing the flour.....*thumbs up...belle did a great job too....finishing up all the pancakes....they chose their sauces each....chocolate syrup and maple syrup....yummy-licious.....right now i am kinda free cuz princess ariel is taking her nap and precious belle is busy drawing...so here i am blogging away nonsense......super-duper bored......

i miss u dearie...raining wor...drive safely..see u later....mwuacks

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candy-val
2:52 PM

❤Wednesday, November 18, 2009 ❤


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candy-val
5:45 PM

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it's been some time since i last move muh butt to log into the internet....here ish muh recent updates.....

13th nov 09
headed to town to meet my baby sis for dinner...slacked for awhile...had two mugs of beer...tried their very yummy dried beef(it's good finger food to compliment with beer)......guessed wat.....miss valerie's handphone got lost......i dunno how the helll blur i was that i ledt it smewhere....i gt soooo damn pissed for today is really muh friday the 13th....arrrrrgh....i lost all contacts and the phone is my sis thats the idea....blur fcuk la me....thereafter...went down to redhill together to meet up with the rest of the guys.....we went over to bubberry to celebrate dear's birthday in advance....drink....drank....danced....had nonsense picures taken with the group....waiting for baby sis to upload then i can post yar???*winks...supposed to help dear with the drinking..but ended up he drank all himself..i mean when he was on stage lar....logo ups...lols....24 seconds.....hm....his tummy is nt for nothing de lor...hahahhahaa...*thumbs up...thank u to those who give face and come atend this small celebration....thanks for ur bottles....especially to all the "lao eh" huh...thanks and appreciated by the both of us....without u guys..won't have so much fun......

15th nov 09
went to meet lawrence and ah seng for steamboat....acompanied by zhenzhen...esmond and da tou.....went to turf city for chong pang steamboat...remember the last time marina south de...yesh..one of the outlets...okie la...the area very windy that day....but standard drop le...now more ex and nt very nice the food...but okie la...they just gt the hard to celebrate with dearie...

16th nov 09
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR DEAR....I WISH U EARN LOTS OF MONEY AND HAVE LOTS OF HAPPINESS.....I LOVE U SOOOOOOO MUCHIE.....MUACKX.TODAY IS THE DAY WHEN I WOULD LIKE TO WISH U ALL THE WISHES I HAVE FOR U THROUGHOUT THE YEAR....HUGS

17TH nov 09
tired tired......work work worked......sians.....going to pick the girls up....arrrrrrgh...no freetime=no work=no money=no go out......really gotta do something man

yippppepeeeeeeee.........today ish 18th nov'09......it's me and dearie's monthsary....happy 8th monthsary to ya...soo fast time past......a blink of eye u have endured me and my two princesses for 8 months...there are more to come and i appreciate god for giving me such a wonderful partner......i love u.....too bad today cannot meet up with u...but i very happy to see u just now in the afernoon for that minute....i know u no money le yet u still waste on my macdonalds....just for me and the kids....yet u never eat urself...haix......thankks again.....smiles*

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candy-val
5:12 PM

❤Wednesday, November 11, 2009 ❤

okie..i am like oh-so bored now....dear just now came in the afternoon to buy mac for me and the kids......hugs to u dear....i knew he was busy working yet he surprised me with mac....yummy yummy.....belle surprisingly did nt ate much fries....hmm....wierd..she normally would just whack up the whole food.....aniwaex.....he reushed off as soon as we ate finish....these few days been going home early....cuz my dear bf could not wake up for work the next day...so he is trying to resolve his sleeping problems.....so lets see if it works this way...

weeee...my sister shan shan is back from malaysia....yippeee...more laughters in the room and nonsense from her liao...if not very boring de u know...without my baby sister zhen..the next person who gossips with me...who laughs with me..who grumbles with me is shan shan le....so....happy to see her....loves


candy-val
5:11 PM

❤Tuesday, November 10, 2009 ❤














today we shall talk about precious belle.....

  • she is growing fat fat fat :)
  • she eats wherever she go....anytime anywhere...anything edible.........*tsk tsk

  • she will sit down ad get her shoes ready for u whenever going out...

  • then she will look at the window and shout for PAPA...(oops...she thinks papa alwaex go out)
  • she will play around and walk around the whole of the market area thinking its her playground
  • she will say hello to everybody she sees at the market

  • when going home time...nobody dunno she going le...cuz she wil walk to each and everybody and either high-five or shake head and say BYE BYE loudly......

  • nowadays she tells all the kor kor jie jie there love u when she going off....awwwwww....
  • when she knows i am aking a nap or sleeping ...she willl di siao siao...cuz she will look at u innoncently and say "mummy...mummy"....nonstop till u respond to her.......

  • belle loves to wear shoes around the hse i just dunno why...especially ariels purple slipper..*scratch head
  • her fav people at home is..jie jie...mummy...papa..ye-ye(grandpa)...and nt forgetting shan-shan yiyi

loving you and ariel baby girls.....hugs.....u brought mummy so much joy......everybody in redhill love you two girls of mine.......cheers**



candy-val
7:06 PM

❤Monday, November 09, 2009 ❤

aaaarrrrrgh.....fcuking pissed right now.....eh....i thot could get some help from u...u dun wanna help i understand...i say never mind le.....then wats ur problem here...who are u to tell me i cannot think....who are u to say i have 2 girls and watever nonsense...i know myself wat i am doing...i know is good intention...but u urself is how old then learn......pls la...u got no criteria to say me......and ur so called frend...thanks for her concern huh...i am not finding people trouble now leh....i will so bloody pissed off is becuz my bf for nth get whack on the head....wats this..wat......pls la...u tell me u not paikia liao...ok lor...then so be it la...but one day ur love one get whack till head break...i see u will react not...i see u will angry not.....think also noe lor...wat u wan me to do ....dun do anything ar...or report police....pls la....i know u all just wanna say me...just say only la...i numb le.....is not as if i still club and go find trouble right.....**nonsense**

at least i dun take drugs like u.....so wat if u are married and u tell me now u think....i tell u lor...i married then i think lor since u say i cannot think...seriously la....i can think cannot think i dun see a need to report to u and her.......arrrrgh......i just dun wanna talk to things that simply got no brains.....fcuk...u guys just wanna irritate me but i wont be....try harder...............................................

a fcuker is forever a fcuker.......................hey...i not saying u leh...why get so worked up.......u think so too meh???lols


candy-val
11:32 AM

❤Sunday, November 08, 2009 ❤

so many problems recently。我的头很痛。sians。lucky now everything is settled 了。girls do treasure ur friendship。能做朋友并不容意。dun wanna hear such nonsense again ya？loves**

ariel going out later。so enjoy =）


candy-val
1:57 PM

❤Thursday, November 05, 2009 ❤

haven't been blogging....loads to update....many ugly things happened..people around me got hurt.....cursed the bastards.....dun wish to say much about the incident but i am looking for u ah hwa....tong ji de....juroint point de....eh....u can cry infront yet come from behind...was that the best u could do????eh...u still got balls come out la.....fcuk...my bf this revenge i will take de.....

girls.....i am very disappointed in all...u girls got trouble we go all out to do thigs for u all but yet is this wat u come and do....silly minor mistakes of urs can lead the whole grp to dead end......dun "jiu ceng"...be alert abit...girls...i want to teach u all things but if like that how u wan me to teach???and the worse things...silly things are happening why is that so....haix.....

dear bryan....baby dear....love made us lose our senses to each other...we got pissed off and went crazy towards each other......yet it taught and showed me how much i meant to u...it set my mind clear of how far u would do things for me......thank u...i really hope things would be right from now....and that u will alwaex be by my side....loves


candy-val
4:18 PM