kinda emo right now....could not go back to slp after i woke up just now at 3 am.........i suddenly feel so emo....so lost...so confused......everyhting had been pretty sweet for me the whole week.....but yet i kinda mixed up everything.....having funny feelings.....i am talking about my relationship.......i suddenly do not know wat i am seeking for....wat i am waiting for....wat i am expecting at all...i simply lost the meaning of a relationship........
dear and i have been quarreling over silly issues....but his "heck-care" attitude is simply getting on my nerves.....have been crazy over my serial drama..."hai pai tian xin"....maybe the story line made me fantasize and thot wat was going on.... i really wanna not anyhow think though....why aren't u working things out tgt with me...

i easily get angry.....i am super-duper sensitive......but u dun expect me not to tell u and show u i am angry right?u dun expect me to smile like nothing's wrong....talk like everything's perfect....act like it's all a dream.....and pretend that it's not hurting me at all......do u really expect me to do so?
sometimes i really wonder.........where do i stand.......


wat it really means to be in love?