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❤Thursday, October 28, 2010 ❤

Aurora or chloe???


candy-val
12:16 AM

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went for muh checkup today at 10.30am....wnt on muh own cuz dearie stayed home to look after the kidss......*thumbs up to bryan
  • i am in muh 36 weeks plus of preg
  • weight now is 73.2kg
  • baby is healthily growing.....
  • doc said i might have a possibility to due next week....
  • that depends on when she wants to come out see the world also

headed to chinatown to use com after that cuz in the afternoon 2pm i till had to go back for my phsychiatrist check...doc asked me seceral quesions regarding my background and he could depict out muh whole life ....super smart...he still can congratulate me for not having mental problem...he said is a problem i have with my insecurity and stress and childhood torments.....he refferred me to a psychologist and said it would help better.....so waiting to talk to this prson to give me some solutions.....

dearie came down to find me with belle....poor ariel gotta be confined at home again.....feeling guilty still bout yesterday....ariel kept testing my patient and blew my top at her....i dunno how to allocate my whole time to so many people at the same time....guess i am wearing out....

getting excited over my due...getting worried and scred...dun ask me why...i wonder why too.....



candy-val
12:03 AM

❤Sunday, October 17, 2010 ❤

a note to my dear.....

dearie i know u have been trying realli hard to be a good daddy and hubby....this family is strong with u around....but there are a few issues that i just cannot meet ends with,......so just let me blah it ou here ya???
  • can u just spend a lil thot for us first????i mean putting us before your needs......
  • i know u need ur freedom to go out and all and have "sacrificed"ur drinking khakis and all but there are times when u simply have neglected me
  • i have not stopped u from drinking whenever i am around...jut niam u not to drink much cuz u driving thats all...
  • u wanna go where drink i with this big tummy also will just blur blur follow....u know me de mah.....
  • i just wonder why u will not like ask me have i settled the kids education thing??or like is there any where u wanna go or do....
  • i dunnno how to put it in words....but is like u will tell me when u have the money u wanna do this and that and is alll for urself....
  • yes of cuz its ur money u wanna have this andthat i shld nt question but wont u think of getting a maid to settle the kids then i can go work first??
  • or maybe we settle our house thing first???
  • u know i have been tlling u how important it is and urgently i need to get a maid...but a simple issue of u asking ur parents bout it is dragged till now lorx....*still nt done
  • everytime u have schedules and plans u will eagerly go ahead with them....but when i have something....i have to book u so advance and still it will be cancelled when u have last min things on....
  • i m always pushed aside like as if my things are nt important at all....
  • if its bout work...i can understand...but sometimes is really unecessary stuffs....
  • i just wanna have a lil of ur attention honey.....

i love u super much and i hope u can change this lil bit for me sake ya???tere is more rants i wanna make but now i gotta go down cuz u reach le...lols....okok....muackx

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candy-val
2:05 AM

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today princesses went over to oli's place...so i hav some free time....*winks....dearie went to eunos for his jiu wang ye thing...met up with leong and esmond...went to joochiat for pepper crabs...shiok...*ate veyr full le...just went there eat the crabs thats all..hahahahaha....thereafter headed to fabulous.....they went there go slack and drink...ended up ony leong drank...lols...ooh no....i cannot sing with this big tummy...no qi lorx....i just tagged along and ended up in wang ba now....cuz they all go drink.....then dun feel like going.....so played game while waiting for dearie to pick me up now...???boreds.....

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candy-val
1:59 AM

❤Friday, October 15, 2010 ❤

another boring day at home.....dearie went to work in the afternoon le...i have been doing the housework again to keep myself occupied.washed up the clothes and hanged them.now folding clothes half-way and i am slacking...lols

i have an issue bothering me today.precious belle's cough will never recover cuz she just cannot stop eating junk food....and wats worst....the adults at home ain't stopping her but encouraging her..duhs~i get angry cuz as an adult u should know wat is heaty for her and all right???whenever belle coughs....she will vomit...and i am the one...the only one that will be cleaning the mess...i not so energetic leh hello........sick is me who is in trouble sure u guys dun mind......called dear to nag about this and he seems pissed.he tell me he will tell his parents bout it....but haiz.....i dunno la....dear....i know u are in between but this thing is not nice if i were to tell it myself right???and is not that i am making a fuss over nonsense...these are all facts ma.....i dunno la....

was just telling dear that maybe i nt doing full confinement.....i just simply dun feel like.....i know i will never have a peace of mind after i givee birth....i know everything i will still have to do by muhself....i know u will not be home for me....cuz u are a person that cannot stay home...and u wont sacrifice....so why make myself so miserable????maybe i can just eat confinement food....dun bathe...but i will definitely bring the girls down to the playground if not how i survive ar....i cannot possibly keep the girls at home with me for the whole month ma....right????

dear tell me it's up to me cuz its muh body....but i wanna say....if u will do ur part...ur parents will help out...i wont have such a problem.....*blinks

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candy-val
6:44 PM

❤Wednesday, October 13, 2010 ❤

today afternoon brought the kids over to ting's place...cuz they have a date....lols....followed dearie to work and now i am like super tired....just sitting and doing nothing i also can feel tired lorx...body system down le.....grrrrr....lil chloe is kicking nonstop..dunno wats her problem.....wonder how is the kids...???are they enjoying themselves????are they giving problems???oooh...i dare noot imagine.....

recently i am super worried bout how to settle the kids when i give birth....i need to get a maid as soon but sooo much to be done...so much cost is involved......just let muh dearie strike lottery la....hen at least things can be straight....lols


candy-val
8:20 PM

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11th october 2010(monday)

went for my checkup at sgh...now in my 34weeks le....guess wat...it was a waste of time....waited for an hour plus before its muh turn...i mean....wats appointment for when i am waiting same timing as walk-ins...????all along i am seeing my gynae at the high-risk clinic...but cuz i got no transport i change to normal clinic at a later timing....the team doctor there see to me...and was damn ice-cream....i was looking around and asked him..."here got no scan???" then an indian doctor just came in and ask what scan i want here all got...."i was like fucked up attitude....damn him...nvm...then my doc tell me no need to scan...why i wanted a scan...i told him everytime i also got scan...cuz i wanted to know baby's weight and all....he tell me the last time baby's weight was normal so is ok....in my mind i was cursing le...i mean why wld the weight of my baby be the same now and then????wats more...he just asked me if here pain there gt pain not....those questions i all also can ask and answer muhself mah.....*shake head

dearie was already super pissed...in the end....i went to the counter and wrote the feedback form...hahahaha.....the next check up i changed back to my normal clinic....and i have to see a psychiatrist....haix.....it will be in two weeks time and hope i dun get this nonsense from sgh again.....tsk

12th oct 2010

i am in so much pain at night....scare me thot i got early contractions again...heng is false alarm....back have been super tired and pain...guess its the weight of the tummy that is taking me down le...i get super tired easily nowadays....less than five mis i can k.o lorx.....lols

i love muh family

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candy-val
8:10 PM

❤Friday, October 08, 2010 ❤

Hi girl,

you must be surprised to see this entry up here.

Do accept my apologies, my mobile is outside and I am really lazy to walk over just to call and let you know I am done with your template. (You ain't on FB either!!)

Not sure if you are fine with this current one, but I find it a lot more simple and nicer (in a way) than the previous one. Also noticed that the previous template cannot be viewed on/with Mozilla.


Had also added the archives, all the way below; after all the links.
Let me know if you want anything to be added..this time, I will charge.


Ok, I am going for my dinner in another 15MINS time.. hungry max gao gao!


& please do not hurt yourself anymore, when the "another you" hit YOU, you don't feel any pain at all, but when the "another you" left YOU, you feel the pain!

Haiyoyo!

I scarifies myself la hor.. mai gong bo.. LOL!

You can always call me whenever your emotion messed up, I accompany you to ichiban sushi, cheese cake, ice cream, yogurt, steam boat and blah blah blah.

You'd knew all these can cure emotions really well! *evil-laugh.


BUT!!
YOU MUST BE ZI DONG ALSO LA!

Don't always like that!!

For I do not want to go back to the extreme fatfat days of mine okay!

Thank you very much!

Okay, am going for a puff now and then dinner.

BYE!


P/s: be it whatever the time now by the time you read this, help me bully the two monsters! muahahahahaha!



candy-val
5:34 PM

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fell into madness stage two days ago.....wednesday was a nightmare for me....i was just not being myself the whole day...dunno wat happen also.....yes...again i lost control of myself since morning....screaming...crying and crazy thots all at one shot......
  • cried profusely nonstop for nothing...i mean nothing.....
  • kept thinking how useless i was....not even able to make it for my once a month checkup....
  • hurt myself again ...banged muh head on the wall.....
  • using the shower and bathe with cold water trying to wash away my temper...with muh clothes on
  • using my keys to make a big sccratch on muh tigh and now is all bruised

nonsense...rubbish and hysterical acts i've done on muhselve....what the hell i was thinking....dearie was patient to keep trying to calm me down....i just cried till i felt super tired and sleepy.....why is this happening again ...i still get no answers just a big big crazy to decribe

went to jp yesterday with ting ....poured out all the nonsense to her...had a full full japanese meal aand all unhappiness just blew away like that...dearie was kind enough to let me go have some "me" time for that few hours and he stayed home to look after the kids....=)

conclusion from ting....maybe i just kept cooping muhself at home doing same old routines everyday and i am bored or stressed till i kept everything to muhself and once i hit the limit...i blew......

feeling super guilty that i blew up just like that...scared the kids and dear le....sorry....sorry

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candy-val
2:00 PM

❤Friday, October 01, 2010 ❤

tummy is super tight nowadays...baby movements are very frequent and obvious....tummy is like doing belly dancing the whole day....and she stretches to the max....must be really squeezy for her in there....lols

went to chinatown OG today to get some of the baby stuffs...spent like 70bucks there so that i can get a free membership for a year...still got 20% discount....but still like half way more...many more stuffs to get....$$$$$....then sent belle to mummy at M hotel for buffet dinner...lucky her...
so now i get some peace...heehee

dearie have nt been in a very gd attitude mood recently...i dunno...i am pregnant and is like duh..why are u so insensitive with ur words and attitude at times...i know he dun mean it and the worst...he dun realise it....but neevr mind though....just that i feel so small beside him....cannot like say wat i wanna say incase it pisses him..

feeling so bored all day...everyday....anyone to ask me out for a budget shopping or meal???lols...

my two princesses are very monsters these days...they scream...fight...never like to share....especially when dear or me not at home....i wonder isiit their eight characters dun match...lols...
conclusion:::::::no leaving the two of them together without parental supervision....gosh...headache.....

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candy-val
10:14 PM